Does mediocrity have any merit?

So I was watching my kpop stuff, and I thought to myself, these celebrities before we saw them as they are, were or are very average in real life. I associate the particular notion to a good majority of them, because obviously as usual there are exceptions. But anyways getting back to the topic, their skills are often at average, but it is their drive and commitment to the art that makes them what they are right now. I like many of them not just because they can reach an octave or note better than someone else, but for the fact that they bring that "something" different to the table. I for one, am a big sucker and supporter of the underdog. But to see this transformation is just so pleasing to me on many levels. Someone took a good look at someone, and tapped into his/her potential, and provided them with the right tools to harness their talent. I mean how often does this happen? If people did this more often, can imagine how better things would be in life, societies would reach new heights, tolerance and talent will grow substantially, it would be a step to something better and positive. Dont you think?

P.S: I am not saying one shouldn't aim high in life or reach for the sky, but just that even if you were to fall short, you still have a chance at that something, which needs you in your mediocrity. Or like the Kari Breed titles her book " coming to terms with mediocrity" is just what we need to do.

I am wondering...

Did I really have a change of heart? Have all those negative feelings dissolved or are they suppressed? If so, why? Have I just given up? Because it is never going to change, cannot comprehend the need to do so. Should I just accept it because we all ARE different? Am I trying defend it from others through my philosphy which does not make sense? But just suits me because its available and I am lonely. Am I betraying a friends trust? Not outright but all the more in a subtle way?Am I being two faced? I dont want to be.

I am glad it did not happen, it gave me shivers to listen to it albeit jokingly. I am glad it did not occur. I truly am.

Rambling

These past few days have been a whirlwind of conflicts, silly and serious, and also a myriad of alternating emotions for me. There is underlying sense of peace and calm, topped with irritation and mood swings on the outside. I dont know why.

Am I really serious about this person, or is it just a passing interest since it has been a long time someone has caught my interest in this particular manner? I dont know.

Weight has been an issue for a long time. Will it go away? Does it truly matter ? dont know.

But inspite of all this, the Lord is always there watching over me every step of the way. Guiding me, being the very light and hope in my life. He will always be there. even through my doubts and beyond. This I know.

Thank you Father. =)

I am feeling Rebellious

Or I did yesterday. I really dont know what is up with people these days, myself included. I am not a novice who needs to be told how to do my job. I believe I have enough brains and experience to do it well . I have never given them a reason to complain, have I? No Indeed Not. Anyways since people just find ways to get under your skin, it might often mean getting off yours to deal with them. Knowing myself to be a person who is anything but confrontational, I sure have garnered the skills for it. I believe I may become a pro in the near future. =)

Rant: I am heartbroken!

Noooo!!!!! Oh why oh why did this happen? Why Shin Ae? Why is it not Alex? I am so sad. =(

Ramble: Tired

So tired today. I am completely worn out. I still have my assignments to do. When will I be done with everything? =( I dont understand why I am so lazy. I feel like I am the only one is this world without any sense of "drive" to do things. Sad..infact it is a pity! But I must atleast convince myself that I do have a semblance of it. I think I do manage to on occasions (convince myself that is), whereas on others I fail miserably.

Ramble: When Good Kids go BAD!

Okay so "BAD" is definitely an over-exaggeration. But, seriously no matter how rowdy class gets at times, you can always depend on a certain few who maintain the proper classroom decorum and etiquette. They are the ones who are used as exemplanary examples of how "good' the children should be. But when this pillar of righteousness falters. Oh my....its pure pandemonium .

Random: Bliss Math

Nimboo + Carbonated pani = AHHH! Refreshingly PERFECT! =}

Nostalgic

I really like the MTV show wassupyoungistaan. It is so hilarious at times. Watching it makes me so nostalgic. I really feel like I am missing out in life ,the friends, the masti , etc. Just that overall feeling of belonging somewhere completely you know? Huhhhh........ Cant wait for the summer to come.

Rant: Plain Jane in Class

There is this girl in my Disease class, who judged by her looks solely, reminds me of a demure 19th century paragon from a Jane Austen novel. She seems nice, but she has this annoying habit of asking questions one after the other. The girl really does not know when to shut up. I mean if you are that clueless read the freaking book, or better yet google! After all we do live in the 21st century, eventhough you may not look the part. I just wanted to smack her.

I know. I am mean.

Ramble: Tests

So we got our tests back today in Anthro. Apparently our class performance was by far the best.

Lovely! Just Lovely I tell you! Why does this always happen when I do my worst? Seriously, this is not the first time either. While the rest of the class embasked in glory, I silently wallowed in self-pity, annoyingly aware of the fact that I had barely studied.

Great! now I have a comprehensive to cram for. What can I say? Other than, dont you just LUV college???? (note: sarcasm at its high)