Time Flies.............

I am embarking on yet another year in my life. It is hard to fathom that I have been here this long on earth, I sure dont feel like it. =) I hope this year brings me and my loved ones blessings galore. I sure do need any I can get.

Since I happen to be a person who lives in the past, it is that much more harder for me to embrace my present. I hope I can learn to accustom myself better to this present phase in my life. As these are the days where I pile on the builing blocks of my future. A lot of decisions and their outcomes pave the way of my path, I hope I maneuver through them dilligently with positive results. I leave the rest to the Lord above.

I hope I become wiser as I grow older, live my life better, and be a better person everyday.

I am truly blessed in every way to have everything I have in my life. I may loose focus of such things, but times like these insinuate the presence of all the good people and things in my life. So thank you everyone, for all that you are to me. =)

Father in Heaven, have mercy on me and make me worthy of thy love and blessings all the days of my life. Amen










P.S: The number of this post and my age happens to be the same number. A funny co-incidence mhhhhhm? =)

Anxious, Scared and Uncertain.............

Life at this moment is hanging on a piece of thread, which may snap at any given time. I am so scared and doubtful as to what the future may hold for me. I thought I tried my best. It is the last stone I need to hurdle over to finish my journey, but I feel like it is turning into a mountain, dissuading my path. I am so scared, father. I am dying a little inside moment by moment. I should have tried harder, given a little more, thought about the long term. But reminiscing about what I should have done, is useless now.

So father, I now ask you from the bottom of my heart, show me right way, lead me in your path, help me overcome this mountain, for once give me the strength to believe in myself so I may reach the end of my journey.

I am tired of the lies and the crooked ways, I dont want to step in their vicinity again. I may have to for I am weak and I cannot stand judgement. I can't bear myself to anyone but you father.

Help me father, make me worthy of you.....I am suffocating inside, I need your blessings to breath and survive, help me father, and guide me the right way..................please have mercy on your servant

Amen.